Two-Oh-One-Four

Thursday, January 1, 2015 1 comments
After going on a very long hiatus that it almost felt forever, I am back to the blogosphere with zero PR resulting from a blog set on private mode with one granted access renewed domain on its fourth year sponsored by Google at zero cost. My absence is solely attributed to the fact that I had absolutely-long-list-of-reasons-to-procrastinate my hands full for the past two years with one obligatory entry posted each year. But I am back for redemption baby!

And what could be more appropriate post to share than a blog entry recounting what was it like for Glayra version 2014? So here’s my Facebook year-in-review general-to-detailed-to-general year in review (forgive me for the strikethroughs, I don’t use blank space backspace).

My 2014 like anyone else's, has been a rollercoaster ride but it wasn’t a jarring one with riveting rise and plummeting fall at certain interval. The "ride" was the most memorable in four years having to climb the highest point of gratification, only to experience the hardest fall later—at an exact, not entirely random moment of the year, a painful loss in December 25. My Lola has passed away at the age of 85. But her passing on Christmas day has taught me a new meaning to celebrating its essence – treasuring the memories of our loved ones and to remind us how limited our time on earth and so, we live to make each moment count.

The realization has allowed me to go over what I have accomplished in the past year (which I've already ranked as the best with 2011 as worst, 2012 as good, 2013 as better, 2014 as guess what). To be honest, I had been mostly spontaneous last year having achieved more milestones than the previous well-planned-out years executed in Q1 at best, forgotten in Q2 at worst.

In 2014, I had been promoted to a new role at work and faced with an overwhelming set of new responsibilities with the “intent” to make me a better IT auditor, adopted my first puppy love Kei, visited three or four new places (Bacolod, Siquijor and Dumaguete and Sarangani) with travel buddy - Mich, finished a 49-day insanely-Insanity workout lost 6 kilograms, completed 100-happy day challenge including one sad day, learned to drive which had quite given my father and sister mini-heart attacks, married Jared Leto, Benedict Cumberbatch and Jared Leto and every hot damn celebrity I love acquired new objects of obsession—actors, artists, series, music and few unnecessary activities. The year was also a time to spend more quality time with my sister now that she had to deal with a long-distance relationship with my future brother-in-law and cou-sis who grew up so fast she’s already in first year college, collecting 200 likes for each profile picture change. It was further a year to strengthen my support system note an important escalation in platonic and tectonic level of threesome friendship with Mika and Ninin only to experience a Fault-In-Our-Stars ER pain level assessment of 10 in wake me up when September ends with Ate Ninz decisively setting off to new and more challenging career direction which gave me enough motivation to write a 2014-dated post. But the year wasn’t just all about adjusting to a new job position or learning how to cut the nails of a dog, it was a year to highlight real hugs, auto-pilot moves few intentional mistakes, happiest birthdays, sad-but-hopeful farewells to colleagues, full-of-love-and-faith wedding of a close friend, quarterly and best de-stressor meet-ups with Pahongs consistently attended by almost same attendees, work-in-progress academic undertaking and rekindled friendships, not to mention the awkward consequence of downsizing my FB network from 1,500 friends to 250.

So this year, I plan to be as spontaneous as I was in 2014 complementing it with a few set goals ensuring that at the end of this year, I would be able to thank myself for breaking the bad habits doing the things I have always wanted to do. And this blog post is just one of them…364 more to go! 

Here’s hoping for a splendid 2015! :]

Study in Red

Friday, September 19, 2014 0 comments
I am granting you special access to my mind palace because guess what, there is no better venue to share all my feelings about the painful fact that I will not be able to see Janina Marie M. Aborde in NCCC anymore you are special. 

I am writing this post to justify my recent behavior and overly sad reaction to your act  writing goodbye letter, giving gift, making last appearance in CIAD and room 3 and the list of ultimate-things-to-do-to-make -Glayra-cry goes on. Selfish. Rude. Honestly, moving. I still describe the pain (you leaving) as 10.

But I could pretty sum it all up in how two years spent with you affected my entirety  life, work, lifestyle, idea of smart consumerism, decisions, love?, everything I know and believe and do not believe in. Every.Thing. Pero sige, in case you do not have any idea of the depth and scope of your impact to me, let me briefly share our story from my perspective.

If Sherlock had you at "wrong", you had me at "gist". For some unknown reason, hearing gist from you on our first conversation had me instantly screen every idea and filter every word I was about to tell you, aside from the fact that Mich did tell something to heighten everything else. So I guess you made quite a "gist-ly" entrance in my life. 

Fastforwarding to our IFCA relationship, my amazement about you has become much more than the "gist" word,  especially the time that I was closely working with you. I've gained so much confidence in myself knowing we had you leading our team. You always had this different perception that somehow set and opened our minds to new things that I could personally use someday. IFCA works because NCCC had you, I know you already know that but I am telling you this as the very first-hand witness. I have seen how you handled the project so well I wonder if you could handle IntEnt too that any hurtful remarks nga ako madunggan on how the IFCA was managed would definitely start world war 3. 

On a much more positive IFCA note, I am so thankful with the chance to be part of your team te ninz. If I would be given a chance to go back in time and correct my mistakes, I would surely make the same mistakes that led me to working with you and the entire team. SPOILER alert: my most favorite moment in NCCC is and will always be the time spent with you and the IFCA team... but mostly with you. 

I have never had a relationship close to what I have with you and yes, I agree that we are not the bestest of friends. Tinuod gud, our friendship does not require any labeling. Though, kung pangutan-on ko dili jud ko katubag kung unsa ka sa akoa, the closest word I could describe you is "special" but let other people call us bestfriends, ganahan ko. Pero this is "no demand" and I give you "no pressure" ha. nyaaaa... :))

CLIMAX alert: Honestly, I do not want to say goodbye because I feel like you are not going anywhere. True, you are moving on to another workplace but I *strongly* believe that I will see you soon. Para sa akoa man gud te ninz, our friendship has already reached such level na dili na kinahanglan magkita kada adlaw para matawag taka nga friend. But one thing is for sure, I will miss you, I miss you even now. 

This I-do-not-want-to-say-goodbye feeling is the very reason why I did not arrange a despedida party for you when I could, did not surprise you a parting gift when I already had plenty of gift ideas in mind, did not prepare a gilbert-like movie and other things we do to the leaving friend because I could not find the courage scanning through our images and captured moments together. And because doing so would confirm you really are leaving and that I'd have to say goodbye. FAIL alert: Dili ko magbabye.  

For the past month, I have been struggling to determine my future now that wala nakoy one person nga suod jud nako in a workplace, and you have set the bars so prettywow high that it would really be impossible to find your replacement I realized I do not need to be close to somebody to occupy room 3 in my heart. I guess that is the obvious downside of the Ninin Limited Edition, I could only have one version of you and our friendship. FINALE ALERT: I am guarding our friendship with my life. 

See you soon te ninz. Thank you and I love you.