Core Memories of 2015

Friday, January 1, 2016 0 comments
Yesterday and the 364 days before that The year must have been so good that I could not remember those bad hair days every bad thing that had happened in 2015 was considered part of the entire plan set forth by the universe in 2014. Yes, if I had to rank my years since 2011, 2015---if not the best---is a year of core memories as Joy of Inside Out would gladly gather the happy balls and house them into the hub of my kolorful NCCC Headquarters joined by the rest of personified emotions---Sadness, Fear, Disgust and Anger.

While the first quarter was mostly spent on convincing people to help me accomplish that not part of their job questionnaire completing my Masters degree requirements, I would specifically not forget my 26th birthday when I had almost celebrated it just like getting through the regular workday…but my family made an effort to render the day extra special with their spontaneous presence just 4 hours away to March 19th.

And yes… finally…after four grueling years as I would normally say back in the high school or college final days a comma and three letters have been appended to my registered domain name, being conferred with a Master of Business Administration degree in April 2015. Academically, that was one full achievement unlocked for years through proper motivation and excellence---which there were no equivalent efforts made from past endeavors. It was quite an attempt to gracefully end what I started in 2011 that it had been a primary root cause for several and big purposeful mistakes and decision errors big career decisions from first resignation to employment hopping applications. Anyhow, all those had paid off well with my family so proud of me and of course, with my sister who likewise graduated with Master of English and Applied Linguistic (MEAL) degree, beating me with one letter for which we entirely dedicated to the true MASTERS of love---our parents.

A year is not as memorable as it is without experiencing plot twists and plot holes lows and challenging circumstances I would never trade for the exact opposite as those served as reference to this year’s another set of challenges. I am somewhat grateful to experience emotional rollercoaster at the workplace for it helped me review my resume that has not been updated for the past 4 years revisit my career goals and assess what truly motivates me to stay in an organization. While the process affected me at various levels, I have been prompted to deliver more valuable results. In fact, the “fear” that was previously felt has been channeled to “excitement”. I am looking forward to a year full of new lessons and knowledge upgrades, ultimately sustaining personal career development I have been taking care of for years.

But 2015 was also an opportunity to take new road---a rare attempt to take new field. However challenging and great it is to achieve, I have conceded to the wishful thinking that it could have played out well in parallel timeline and my decision to discontinue my CPA ambitious hopes was a good decision after all. That was one semester worth keeping which provided me a tip on how to initiate or keep up on a conversation with a CPA holder---that he is.

Meanwhile, the year was of course, fully felt with the presence of best friends, new colleagues, one of them turned out to be so special, the one who would deeply mattersole un-friendship on multiple instances and few acquaintances.

2015 was a moment to experience the most memorable and fun travel with Ilocos escapade and Coron adventure and sweet holiday vacations.

It is the year to encounter new angels giving a glimpse of joy to meet my future angel and witness true love from the weddings of closest friends sending me a strong signal for that only love coming on his way.

Actually, he was not on his way, he arrived perfectly… And that how 2015 ended on a high and happy note. LOVE.

Thank you Lord and the Universe for making time a wonderful instrument to experience Your greatness. 

2016, I shall upgrade the hub and store it with brand new set of core memories. J

The Bertrand Zobrist Concept

Monday, September 28, 2015 0 comments
I have finished yet another mindblowing, conspiracy-driven masterpiece of Dan Brown which as expected, has inspired me to write a long blog post addressed to zero audience allowed me to collect my thoughts and revisit the ideas brought about by Peter Joseph’s Zeitgeist. However this time, a new element is added to Joseph’s framework---a concept I have not realized until I had come across Sienna Brooks read Inferno.

While I am proficient at hitting minimum word count entirely doctorate away from a TED talker discussing world’s greatest issues, I would have to admit that at some point in my life, I have asked same set of questions thrown out by the most intellectual individuals on Earth as to how humanity could survive with replicating walkers multiplying consumers depending on limited resources. Yes, we are looking at a common situation here---scarcity. Earth is endlessly catering gatecrashers evidently getting crowded, though in the place where I mostly spend my days and nights, the total man count is trifling. But to give you enough visuals, imagine making your way through the thick crowd in Manila or India metropolis. We are facing largely-dismissed issue of the world today---overpopulation. I would like to take it from the fictional character I wish was non-fictional at all Bertrand Zobrist, Mathematics presents an appalling fact---global population has been on the rise over the century. Statistics shows what people are afraid to recognize…or are we just deliberately ignoring the figures as if those will just downplay on its own?

The story progressed into giving the idea of another apocalypse-themed plot black death in 14th century that claimed at most 200 million lives, as luck would have it setting off the balance in population, which contributed significant effects on human history (most historians noted that the said plague gave way to Renaissance).  Even then, I have reservations that another plague would solve the problem, as people inherently like occupying space. Until I reached the climax of the story, pointing its readers to a probable solution, unexpectedly, Bertrand Zobrist Dan Brown may have just proposed a simple but unsettling answer to the complex question---sterility. In the novel, Zobrist, a genius genetic engineer, masterminded a virus that could modify the human DNA, making it impossible to reproduce, randomly activating the sequence on at least a third of the affected population.

While some of you if the zero audience turned out to be one or two Glayreaders would definitely consider such proposal demented or simply, evil---belying Genesis’s “go forth and multiply”, what I see is the lesser of two evils, that the other evil would be releasing another plague, killing innocent people in the process. Nobody is killing somebody in the lesser evil. It is controlling the numbers, enough to be accommodated by the limited resources.

Though, it is entirely based on fiction and such advancement in technology is not even close to today’s discoveries in genetics field, I am considering the fact that even so I would not be able to reproduce and replicate my awesomeness, if it is the key to humanity’s survival, I am all for it. I am all for preserving humanity. I am all for selfless legacy. I am all for making the most of the given chance to live life as I am allowed to…for there is nothing beyond the time spectrum, but will to continuously set the balance in nature. 

And so, that one element added to Zeitgest---fixing human evolution at root level.

Heneral Luna: brief, sincere movie review

Saturday, September 26, 2015 0 comments
wish i had paid more attention to my history classes before... realized that the interests in power and authority were deeply embedded in the system...and have worsened over the years...decades even. 

Heneral Luna is one of the most compelling films ive ever watched...with high expectations, it places itself as one of the best Filipino films ever produced...rendered on ambitious cinematography---an important element i could tell, being a movie enthusiast of different genre, it's more than sufficient to be noticed at the international level...and yes, the entire movie was delivered by outstanding performances of its large cast with intense talents that are well spot-on. 

certainly, a film i would be looking forward to next year's oscars line-up... 

Present views on commitment (and they haven’t changed or have they?)

Saturday, August 29, 2015 0 comments
Before I elaborate on the list of arguments why commitment is still messing with my brain cells appropriate definition of commitment that it has been a recurring issue that deserves a comeback topic in this blog, let me share this link that was blogged 4 years ago by the same optimistically pessimistic author of

First off, I believed back then that I would eventually not NOT get married and that sharing myself with men someone is wasting my body and mind resources not even on my list. PRESENT: Though having a baby is not synonymous to getting married, somehow, I find myself today wishing I could pass down my awesomeness genes to a mini-glayra for it is the only and most beautiful thing that I would share and leave to the world as I vanish into an endless void someday.

Secondly, I was blabbing about how my parents were so excited to pressure see me seeing somebody, I guess this time, by substance, they still consider it but not as the same level of aggressiveness as before for they are more excited of the challenge I just created last June me making my life a lot more complicated than what I just had completed for the past grueling, four years. PRESENT: I am impatiently patiently waiting for that moment and I still consider the fact that to be with someone would negate my parents’ perspective of me as most overly intimidating woman on earth make my parents happy.

So has commitment really lost its one fanatic back then? Hell, Well, yes! Is it trying to mess with me again win me back now? I would say, its lowest point was halfway to today---NO. But at some point this year, I would say, YES. But my views on commitment have changed in a way that I have deeply deliberated on the fact that commitment requires different factors to play and complement with each other really well.

PRESENT: Commitment is founded on constant decision to keep the relationship going regardless of pace and pitch.

Regardless of PACE---people often associate commitment as hitting the daily target of cheating commitment-acceptable-rate. Actually, it is not everyday that you deliver the same level of affection and respect to your partner, its measurability does not confirm your actions as less or more committed, there is only one and absolute value where all levels are the same---committed, with that being said, a cheater person in a relationship is not obliged to maintain the same expressions of love everyday---for love fluctuates but is still love after all.

Regardless of PITCH---ever wonder why change is such a never-ending interference to my world constant in this world because flat is boring. Perfect is boring. Straight line is boring. Commitment is a continuous battle with motion, with ups and downs. To be cheated on committed is to experience the highest highs and lowest lows but then again, commitment settles halfway. It regains equilibrium. For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction as love scientist Newton would point out. Commitment is never measured on doing of what is "constant" and "always". Commitment is restoring flat lines in disturbances, and in abrupt periods to prevent complacency and free passes to the cheating highway.

For the same pessimistically optimistic author of, commitment is a decision. And a committed person does not forget. And love does not only involve heart and the rest of body, the most important organ in love is the controlling brain, really.

FUTURE: Commitment will win me back. It must.